Possible recent diagnosis.

Hi. I am new.

I recently went to my doctor following an appointment with a psychiatrist. I got a glance at my psych eval and among other things I saw something to do with Borderline Personality. I asked him about it and he said it was just a "general term for people who don't deal very well with life." He seemed to be really nonchalant about it.I studied mental health in post-secondary enough to know that personality disorders are very difficult to treat. I don't recall ever having been diagnosed with a personality disorder before. Mostly just major depressive disorder, panic disorder, social anxiety, generalized anxiety disorder etc. I am not sure if it was a formal diagnosis or what is really going on. Has anyone else experienced anything like this? I feel like I am always seeing people but I never get a clear vision of my actual diagnoses.

Hi insects! I like your username!

I heard about this situation before, where the doctor didn't let the patient know about their disorder....it may have been even here on this board. This could happen for several reasons, and in my opinion this is not something i personally agree with.

Do you feel you can relate to the BPD symptoms?

Thanks, pal. I will try to make this as short as possible so you don't have to sift through a wall of text. TRIGGER WARNING: suicide, self injury.

I never really thought about BPD before. I was also on 150mg zoloft as well as benzos as needed since I was about 14 or 15 I think(about 7 years). I'm not sure though I think I was 12/13 when my parents found out about my self-injury. Anyway, lot of stuff was just sort of easily repressed and I was a little zombified for a lot of years after that. Then I felt as though I was in a really good place and wanted to try life without meds. I'll explain to you how I got the diagnosis maybe instead of trying to decide whether I relate or not because my opinion might be biased.

It's a really long story kind of but I flew across the country to visit my ex gf because she bought me a ticket. I had a bunch of weird ###$ up relationships in those 4 months and bounced around between cities but the most important one was with this dude who lived across the street from my ex gf. I basically moved in with him as soon as I met him. We were inseparable. He drove to Montreal when I went there and took me back home with him. I had much more pronounced episodes where I would feel out of my body or not real though and the guy started saying he could tell I was going somewhere else and I was very unresponsive usually after some sort of disagreement. I relapsed in my self injurious behavior as well as thinking about suicide a lot. One time in Montreal he held me really tightly when the train was coming and when I asked him why he said "I thought you were gonna jump in front of it" and it was honestly all I had been thinking about. I could feel myself getting worse and worse but I didn't want to leave him. When I finally decided to come home and stabilize they got me into a psychiatrist pretty quick and I guess that is who wrote something about borderline personality on my psych eval.

Is there a difference between having a disorder or it just being a personality type?Or if you have that personality type does it mean you have the disorder? My doc played it off like that was just my type of personality like some Meyers Briggs #######4. If you have any questions that might better help you help me figure this out then by all means feel free to ask. I am just very confused.