emotions too strong

I notice I feel rage in my head much like intense overwhelming pain in the body. I am trying to focus more on the head area during meditation but I'm not sure if it's gonna work.

I heard anger is meant to be felt in the torso
but I feel it in my mind and it just takes over.

I felt suicidaly depressed not long ago and I couldn't just observe the feeling it was torture, I waited for it to pass but i was full thinking about suicide. I went to the er eventually. Pro tip don't take antiacids such as rantidine.

I never used to be so unhinged, I thought bpd was meant to get better with age.

I'm tackling this with physical health.