Favorite BPD Symptom?

Recklessness and impulsive decisions.

The rest, and especially '' scanning my surroundings for bad things to happen or over thinking stuff and reaction out of order '' can go down the deepest black hole.

Reading eyes and body language well.

Sometimes I actually like dissociating because it's good for avoiding a situation without physically leaving.

Well, I'm not sure if these features are associated with BPD, but:

I feel like I'm different. Sometimes it can be exhausting for me, but usually - I feel special. Different from the majority of people. If I meet a new group of people (and am in a good mood) - I act very open, I'm very friendly, creative, often both physically and mentally excited. That makes other remember me. I just feel I'm simply not this kind of person that can be easily passed by. Even if it sounds stupid - I don't think that anyone could not pay attention to me. I'm usually at the center of interest, even if I don't do anything (on purpose) for such a situation. It just happens.

I also think that I'm a good friend. I know how it is to be miserable, so when my friends need me - I'm always willing to help them, to listen to them and offer my support. I think that due to my abandonment experience - I would not be able to leave alone any of my friends when they have problem.

And what I also like - sometimes I have almost maniac moods. They last for about an hour, perhaps two. But the feeling of being so happy, excited and capable of do anything is so amazing, that I really love these moments. They happen out of nothing, suddenly with no reason, but I feel like a God then. Quite interesting. It's like having free drugs.

I consider some traits as advantages. But to me, asking what a favorite part of your mental illness is, is much like asking someone without a limb what their favorite part about not having that limb is.

But to each their own I guess.

To be honest I probably wouldn't have made this thread if I'd thought about it for more than a few seconds, but *impulsiveness* (which ironically enough is the one diagnostic symptom I've never met). I can see how it might be a bit of a slap in the face to some people to see this thread and I didn't consider that before I made it. Sorry!

I think my favorite symptom is being a people pleaser, especially in bed. I always want to please everyone, partially because it makes me more confident but mostly because I have a fear of abandonment/rejection. I've always been open to trying almost anything in bed and after being with hundreds of men (at the worst point of my BPD) I can honestly say it's benefitted me in the long run. I know how to make guys happy and just generally, I think being a people pleaser is a good trait to have because people can tell that you're really going out of your way for them and that means a lot.

other than that, I pretty much hate everything else about my BPD.