tired...

i'm exhausted. i tried to fight the depression but i'm exhausted...i dont see any future...this bpd feels like some illness. the urge to become a child, the helplessness, it all feels like it's ruined it all

yes, bpd has its advantages, but what's the point of all the empathy if it doesnt make you happy, i'm tired

this bpd had made me some sacrifical lamb, who doesnt fight for himself. like i had become the person who would thank the person who'd slap him.

i dont want any job, nor do i want any friends...i dont see any future...why am i even living...i

i dont see any hope...

Hugs Jaus...sorry to hear you're struggling. I dont know what to say but am listening.

Hugs!
I feel the same way right now. You're not alone.

But just a question....what are the advantages of BPD?
I can't see any right now....

Oh, jaus! We want you to be okay. You are smart that you talk about and write about it. Is there someone there that you can talk to that you trust? I appreciated how you described how you felt. Have you ever looked back after a month and saw what you wrote? And had your feelings changed? Did anything help you to feel better?.....Can you come up with some sort of action plan?....

the advantages of bpd are

too much empathy....seems more like a disadvantage though, where you sacrifice yourself for others
euphoria which one feels at times

i tried to go for job but nothing works...

i have no enthusiasm towards anything

i eat only when hunger levels are extreme, meet a friend just for the sake of it...

jaus tail wrote:too much empathy....seems more like a disadvantage though, where you sacrifice yourself for others

only in a sick culture/society that doesn't appreciate it.