I keep running back to them.

I keep pushing them out, I keep crying, I keep letting them back in, I keep letting them hurt me, I keep pushing them out, I keep feeling like they no longer want anything to do with me out of no where. Eight years of this, I want them back in my life again even if all they're going to do is ignore me, ignore me, ignore me for months unend....
More than one person has done this, yet I have taken back everyone. I feel awful.

if they treated your kid the way they treat you, would you still allow them? this questions helps me solve my dilemmas.

In order to have a healthy relationship limits must be set. I loved an article describing this by one individual (Melanie Tonia Evans): Personal Boundaries in Relationships, Honoring Yourself....I hope that it helps...

KadyCandy wrote:I keep pushing them out, I keep crying, I keep letting them back in, I keep letting them hurt me, I keep pushing them out, I keep feeling like they no longer want anything to do with me out of no where. Eight years of this, I want them back in my life again even if all they're going to do is ignore me, ignore me, ignore me for months unend....
More than one person has done this, yet I have taken back everyone. I feel awful.

This is how my relationship with my mother went down. I was 42 years old in 2009 and I divorced my mother for good. And I look back now on it? It was the best decision I had ever made. And since my other family members took her side, I divorced them too. I got to the point where enough was enough, already. While I am free from them, it isn't easy not having a family but since I was considered "the black sheep" of my family, I never really had one to begin with. But I have myself and my dignity now. Removing toxic people from your life for good is an exercise in self-respect and love.