help, i punched myself tw

i am tired. i had a horrible past. my friends dont believe in bpd. they just say, 'ok will check when get time.' they dont believe in depression. they actually are glad that they have a cry baby like me, so their ego can be raised by pitying me. i have no friends left. i cry...i dont care. i dont feel emotions. help.

suicidal thoughts are rampant....i was thinking of life after suicide, that peaceful moment when i'll leave this world and be free...why should i bother to live...all my friends think oh mental illness are crap...

i dont have anyone by my side. i dont like my caretaker...i dont like anything....i wish i were never born...

that's basic karate training

lol

at least my stomach will get stronger.

-- Mon May 05, 2014 9:46 pm --

lol

at least my stomach will get stronger by punching it.

Well I, for one, want to be your friend. Why do you think that those guys act that way? cos they're idiots! lol (no jk) But I really do think that they are uneducated...pretty much....don't you think?

I feel for ya, Jaus. Having friends IRL who aren't supportive is rough. It doesn't make them the best of friends, but you just can't let go of them, can you? I know the feeling, all too well. Just hang tight, and try not to let those bad thoughts get the better of you, okay? If you ever want to talk, we're here for you.

Finding good friends in real life is hard. I'm sorry the ones you have right now fail to see you as the good person you are and make an effort to understand your emotional/mental struggles. I'd say get new friends, but know that's so much easier said than done. Hang in there and try to stay positive.

Having no friends is better than having sh*tty friends.

You don't need people in your life who are going to trigger feelings like you are going through.

I am sorry you are going through this. I hope you feel better soon.

thanks for your replies. i've realized that it's better to see events and people as healthy or unhealthy.

they maybe #######5 for me but for someone else they're the 'apple of the eye' so i'd rather stay away from them, rather than do any formality and hang out with 'em just for the sake of it.