rant...tired and angry, hopeless

i dont know where my life will go. its tiring, no friends let. dont want any friends. i just have anger against this caretaker who may have npd. no wonder people have angry against bpd folks. i can be so tiring at times.

i feel filthy, almost algae growing over my skin...everything appears stained. i feel miserable...wtf

Jaus Tail,dont allow others to invalidate your life and being.You are so much more then someone elses opinion.You have worth,value and meaning in this world.Never feel hopeless,for there is always hope.Its hard..I know.I had a rough day today...BUT no one can take from us our sense of self.We know who we are.We matter in this world.There is a place for you...an important place at that,even if it seems far out of reach at the moment.I dont know why other people want to devalue others.It makes no sense.Maybe it is they who actually have no worth in this world,as they try to steal ours..?But they cant have our worth cuz we own it,it belongs to us.They can go along their miserable ways,but we dont have to be part of their misery.There is a special place for emotional abusers,I think its called HELL..What goes around comes around,and those who torment will get "their turn" soon enough...I wish you peace..joy..and happiness..You deserve it..XX

I felt irritated (some new transference issues) and so forth this morning. And that is why I started that last thread. I decided to set limits, boundaries with ppl here; and then not let those feelings ruin my vacation (funny how it all is good now with them). Besides I discovered that I looked at the itinerary wrong and I have another day here

thanks..i'll need some time i guess