I really regret this

Lately, I've really been wanting to get laid, and last night, it got to the point where I put up an ad on Craigslist. So, I meet up with this guy, and it was really bad. It had it's good parts, but it was pretty sloppy. He had been drinking a bit before, and it didn't help at all. After he left, I felt like crying and like I was going to throw up. I keep switching between these moments of being ok with it, and just being disgusted with myself. I hate how fast my mood changes with these types of things. I just needed to get this out, I'm sorry. Can anyone relate?

I understand. i've never taken an ad out on craigslist but i have engaged in some risky behavior when it comes to sex and using the internet.

you have to try and forgive yourself. you're human and humans have sexual needs. this was an agreement between two people to come together for sex. it may not have been mind blowing but it did the job. yes it was an impulsive thing to do, but as long as no laws were broken, it's ok.

i guess i've just kind of conditioned myself to not attach feelings to sex. it's more of a "exercise" type activity to me.

I have done the exact same thing, twice now. I have felt repulsion, inappropriate amusement and disgust for myself over it. But you know what? What's past is past. You did it, life goes on and you can't change it. Like Cheebs said, you're human and you have needs. We all do. Maybe it wasn't perfect, but they can't all be perfect.

*hugs* try not to beat yourself up over it.