Iloveandhatebrains wrote:Yeah don't go in the ASPD forum, it's pretty nasty.
It also depends on what each of us is more susceptible to.... and sometimes you find out you are susceptible to things you didn't know you were susceptible to, which is an unpleasant experience.
Havoctoria wrote:Someone could feel the same way about this forum, too. Lord knows there's a reason I don't exactly bask in the company here... buuuut I guess it all comes down to not deliberately triggering yourself.

I did find it pretty triggering in here to begin with as well, but I think I became a little more desensitized, and
that's maybe the problem - some things maybe a person should never become desensitized to. The way I see it, sensitivity is what acts as a gage when we are harming ourselves or others, and if we have made that indicator less responsive....
At this point, I think it is better for me to stop visiting PsychForums altogether for this reason, for me, it is a good thing not to not be familiar with a plethora of extreme disturbances, unless it's your job or something - again, a need to know basis. I need to stop being nosy regarding things that add nothing to my life, indeed which are detracting from my peace of mind in a lot of ways by triggering anxiety, fear, phobias, horror, and all sorts of things which I really don't need to add to my own plate, which is pretty full already.
If I or someone close to me has a problem, seeks help, and is diagnosed by someone who is expert in that field, then yes I should read those forums to get a better handle on things, if however I am reading them for "just in case" or "let me see if I have this thing too" or "let me find out why people do (insert disturbing act here) such and such", then I am feeding my own mental illness rather than alleviating it. It's been a temptation I have found hard to resist, and I think I need to stop visiting because the harm is outweighing the help for me, due to my own lack of control over what I read.
I see the mind like a pristine piece of fragile absorbent glass, it absorbs and reflects back whatever it is exposed to, to whatever degree of exposure that may be - light and fleeting or extreme and consistent... I think there is a part of us very that is very clean and pure, and it is our lives, the things we see, hear, do, all of our senses and intuitions, which construct its colours and shapes, its texture, whether it is soft or hard, dense or light mass, and that this construction and molding continues for as long as we are alive. The level of pristine which remains, as a consequence the duty of responsibility to the more fragile facets of ourselves we did/did not undertake (when we are able to do so).