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I'm 99% sure I'm borderline, formerly diagnosed with bipolar disorder but I knew it wasn't true. I have never been depressed and I never experienced mania until I got on lamictil and also with wellbutrin. I came across BPD and tears started falling as I began reading it. I have all of these symptoms except suicidal tendencies. I've been whining for years about my emptiness and my lack of identity and my sensitive and overactive temper and anger only to discover it all fits together. i was extremely relieved by this. Finally I have a label or category that I fit into. I'm not a freak and all of my emotions are valid! Yay me! All this time I was afraid I didn't know myself or how I was feeling a lot of the time and it turns out I was spot on. Anyway I can't talk to my husband or anyone about this yet so I am seeking support and friendship if anyone is interested. Please excuse my lack of ability when it comes to the friendship thing, I have no social skills.

I'm happy that you found this forum so that you can get the support you need. I remember when I first realized I had this disorder. It wasn't actually the doctors that told me, but i figured it out on my own while taking my degree in psychology! I found out a couple years later that the psychologists I had seen two years prior had diagnosed me with that but did not tell me. I remember them telling me that I have social anxiety disorder. I was like, I have something much more than that!!! I eventually found out that they had sent the paper work to my MD and she told me two years later when I was very unwell and required medication that my real diagnosis was BPD. It is definitely a shock to realize and also a relief to know that you are not alone. Others in this world feel the same. What I suggest is read up on BPD as much as you can to learn about yourself and come to this forum and ask questions. It really helps a lot. It makes you feel much less alone in this opposite world.

Kia,

Hi and welcome. I hope you find the support you are looking for here. I remember the relief and horror I felt when I first found out about my BPD. Relief because I had never considered it before but it explained so much, horror because there was a very real possibility that if I didn't learn to get a handle on it I'd have to live with it forever. I hope that you find the kind of support that you are looking for here. Telling your family may not be that difficult information overload isn't always a good thing though for you or them. There are a lot of garbage resources on line and in print imo be selective in what you present to them. This one here....

http://www.primals.org/articles/hannig03.html is a good one again in my opinion. Good luck in what you find.