I'm in trouble

I need some advice, not urgent, but it's needed. My "impulses" include SH, drinking, spending, gambling and drugs. Most of this I had under control but this week I've spent my entire week's wage on cocaine. I'm an addict. What the hell do I do?

As someone who's always been impulsive, this isn't simply an addiction. In fact, it may not even be addiction. I need to control my impulses. I just put a month's wages on a bet... oh my god, just someone tell me some sort of way to help myself.... I'm almost bankrupt as it is....

Do you have a doctor or therapist you can confide in? Anyone you can trust? If worse comes to worse, maybe check into a hospital? In my experience they may bring out a social worker to speak with you, and they will be able to direct you to the proper channel to get you some help.

I'm really at a loss otherwise, I'm sorry. But from the sounds of it, it sounds like you might want to get help on this as soon as possible.

My local hospital has gotten to know me quite well. I've been through the system, and recently went to a psych ward. I know everyone's experiences are different, but I've had generally positive experiences. It's their job to help you.

But I would get on this as soon as possible. I'm terrible with advice so that's the best I can give you. I hope it helps. That sounds like a very tough situation to be in.

Oh my god, are you telling me I've gotten so bad I need to see a doctor?

I can't make that determination for you. What I'm saying is that it seems to be a problem that is distressing you, and if it's really causing you a lot of problems, I think it's something you should address, probably sooner than later.

I only gave an alternative by going to the hospital if you feel it is urgent. That is all. Personally, I think you should see someone. But that's ultimately your choice.

Have you considered telling someone close to you about your problems?

I have told a few people, it doesn't help. If anything it makes it worse.

When did you start drinking and gambling? Perhaps that could help you understand why you indulge in these habits.

I'd say that drinking isn't bad, it's unhealthy if taken in excess. Don't try to see it as a bad act, cause that fuels guilt and self hatred. See it as an unhealthy habit that can be changed.