Bond by the soul

I once thought that I knew what happiness was like, but I was mistaken. Forwhy I have found how it does feel to be really happy, truly happy, nothing fleeting, only last night.

In the night when she came to me, in my cave made of barred windows and closed curtains, locked doors and dimming light, where is always almost dark, light shone and life flowed into me when she smiled and blissful words were said by her. A night of wonders when I sought her arm across the bed and I held her hand as she held mine, the exchange of looks was the bonding of our souls.

The intertwining of our fingers, the strength of our grasp as if to never let go, made me realize that I was no longer alone, that I have found my place, a purpose, a home inside her heart to bath forever into her soul and warmth.

As my eyelids brought dark to my sight, I have seen ourselves in the Future, together. She and I. Now, to grow old by her side is my only wish from what is left of this life, to make this glimpse of the Future a truth is what I have to live for.

When they see us, they may see two people, yet, we will be just one for we are bond to the soul. She and I. I love you.


EDIT:

Sorry about my poor English.

That is a stunning piece! Poetry, if I may.
Beautifully worded.
I funny understand you. Amazing experience!

EKO said it so well for all of us...

Oh, thank you.

But this wasn't a real life experience... I would love it to have been... It was just a dream that I had and I felt like sharing it here.

Merry Christmas to all who celebrate this day.

Beautifully worded, nonetheless!

Merry Christmas!

It was exactly like me dream and i was happy for u for your experience when u said it wasnt rwal i got sad.

"It was exactly like me dream"

What do you mean, Arisa? That you dreamt of this?

Also, don't feel sad, for such is life. For some, only dreams are left, but from time to time, not even that.
Then what is left, one can wonder, demise that is.

long ago, I used to say this:


Such is life,
a waste of time and it is deceiving us,
luring us to believe it can be less unbearable,
to then it strikes you,
without warning and merciless.
One will do well if he does not
let himself be carried away
by the flow of the moment,
denying reality and its obvious outcome,
for happiness is only the sorrow with a beautiful mask.
Such is life,
full of deceiving tales.


EDIT:

Thabnk you, Eko, you are really sweet, that I almost doubt if you really do exist.

I have a strong flow of feelings inside my heart. When i have someone to love, to use this feeling on him, i live in heaven, i am totally a different person. I feel. I am alive, i care, future is mine, even i look different, the happiness reflect on my skin and i have a sparkle in my eyes. But when i dont have someone this extra feelings stay inside and turn to a destructive energy and ruins my life. I feel insecure, my nightmares are back and i feel nothing matters. But the problem is i am too honest and always make people run away. But i cant lie about myself and deprive them of their right, if they like me and then figure it out, they will get hurt and i dont want this

I understand what you are saying, you and I are somewhat alike. I too choose to love entirely, or to not to. But it was long ago, when I still had ability to deal with another person, to comunicate. Not that I am unable to love today, but I just don't know how to.

When you say that your happiness does reflects upon your skin, I can say the same, but with one difference. That is, it is the sorrow that reflects upon my skin, over my head.
When the crimson flows and makes me feel numb, that's when I am reminded that I am still alive, even though it does not feel that way, but it does feel right.

The marks left are meant to spell an apology, apology to them, to my mother to the world.



How often do you have someone, Arisa?

I ask this because if someone perceive you, or so you think they do, and with that they will get hurt, you might be wrong. I mean, about feeling sad about they being hurt. I say that because by they perceiving you should not be an issue, but a step closer to your inner self, and that should be good and not a bad thing. And do not forget that the said person might not be perceiveing you right about how you really are, but one of the phases of yourself. Also, they might not even be perceiving you, but a impression that you get. Impression that caused by your behavior.
So, if you don't mind me asking this, how DO YOU perceive yourself and do you feel insecure?

I'd love to stay and chat more, I haven't done this in months, to talk I mean, but right now I have to leave for work and I am already late...
I wonder what mask should I wear today... Wish I could just stay home and sleep, then, mayhap, to dream... But since I am to go, at least something should happen, a train crash should be an good excuse for I am being late today...

Have a nice day.

*warning, party pooper*
1. True happiness does not come from anything or anyone. Only alone with yourself can you be truly happy.
2. I sounded like you once. Or twice or 10 times. Every new guy is TEH one. Then BPD kicks in and it's splitting, black & white and TEH one turns into TEH one that was not IT.