Gaining weight *trigger warning - eating and weight*

In the past 7 months, I've gained weight and i have NOT seen these types of numbers on the scales since i was i dont know ... 13? Im 25 now. Let me first begin with I have chronic neck and shoulder pain that started 2 years ago and I've seen several doctors and have been trying to get to the bottom of it but its pretty much killed most of my exercise. Any time i move my arm too much or too fast, it bothers me for hours. I mean it bothers me every day but gets worse when i use my arm.

The other day after 5 months of not going to my gym, i went. All I did was power walk for 30 mins and my shoulder really hurt that night. So the only thing I imagine I can do is light walking on the treadmill for a form of exercise. Even yoga I can't do. At least not right now.

Exercise has always been a big deal to me and i feel like I've had some major stressors come into my life (chronic pain, financial issues, relationship issues, my cat needing surgery, etc) and I feel like I've been going towards bad food A LOT lately. If i used to eat badly, I would care about it and feel guilty afterwards. now, i just dont seem to care.

however, now none of my pants fit, jeans or stretchy sweatpants!!!! i have to unbutton my jeans cause they are too tight and when i take them off, theres a red mark on my belly from my jeans being too tight.

im not looking for advice on my neck shoulder thing... i am still going through steps to try and fix the issue. Im not even looking for exercise tips. I guess more with food tips? I feel SO STUCK Ive gotten my taste buds VERY used to junk food and i have no pleasure eating veggies YUCK and fruit is okay but not something i care to eat.

i guess because I'm feeling major stress in different areas of my life, i turn to yummy foods to give me some kind of pleasure in life.

im not sure what I am trying to get out of this post. I dont know if I want to hear similar stories, tips or what. I guess I'm just venting? I dont know...

but i am really starting to feel awful about this weight gain. Growing up, i was chubby, teased by it and it really bothered me. I used to punch my stomach because i was so angry for being that size. I really FEAR weight gain.

Hmmmm.... I'm not sure how to help, because ... well I don't know.
Try to ration it? You're probably talking just about fries and hamburgers, but if you're not... and you overeat on chips.. try not to eat it from the box/pack. Just take some out into a bowl/on a plate and put the rest away.
I normally don't have problems with that. I can tell myself. Enough. But I know plenty of others who, when they open chips/cookies, cannot stop unless they eat the whole thing. I'm simply unable to help them.

Your problem right there is - you don't really care. And if one doesn't care..... you know what happens.

I'm right there with you. I used to be VERY heavy in high school. I lost almost 100lbs. Currently I've gained back 60lbs from that 100 I lost. I feel miserable. This happened to me last year as well, but I was able to lose 30 (which I've now put back on). I've had a really crappy year in my personal life which has fueled binge eating and just bad eating habits in general. When I'm ready to get back on track (which will be happening soon I hope) it really helps me to calorie count. The act of just having to write down exactly what I eat and stay within a certain number of calories makes me think about my food choices. I usually start with a higher number and then work my way down to a weight loss type of number.

Cheze2 wrote:I'm right there with you. I used to be VERY heavy in high school. I lost almost 100lbs. Currently I've gained back 60lbs from that 100 I lost. I feel miserable. This happened to me last year as well, but I was able to lose 30 (which I've now put back on). I've had a really crappy year in my personal life which has fueled binge eating and just bad eating habits in general. When I'm ready to get back on track (which will be happening soon I hope) it really helps me to calorie count. The act of just having to write down exactly what I eat and stay within a certain number of calories makes me think about my food choices. I usually start with a higher number and then work my way down to a weight loss type of number.

*trigger warning - weight*
yes yes! exactly what you've explained is how I've gotten from point A to B. I'm 5'7 and weighed 135 in may. good weight for my height. now I'm close to 150 and while some people would say "omg you're still skinny" NONE of my jeans or sweat pants fit anymore which is depressing in itself. not only is everything too tight but i need to go out and buy all new pants now? I've had a very bad year with personal issues too and just recently, I've let myself "Go" in terms of eating bad.

I remember you telling me you're on paxil. i just swallowed my first pill of it today since thats one of the only antidepressants i haven't tried yet. but I'm hesitant. I'm scared ill gain weight on it since its one of the worst offenders for weight gain.

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*trigger warning - weight*

Awwww I'm in the same place. I am 5'5, was 135, now I am 160. Urgh, last time I was this heavy was at 13 too.

And I've been binging lately. :S

My pants hardly fit now, god I don't know how I'm still wearing size 5 jeans in the first place, my body is really dense or something though... it makes it harder to admit there is a problem when I can still mostly wear the same sizes though... but my waist is up like 2-3" ;_;

*hugs* you're not alone. Hope we can get it under control.

vertices wrote:Awwww I'm in the same place. I am 5'5, was 135, now I am 160. Urgh, last time I was this heavy was at 13 too.

And I've been binging lately. :S

My pants hardly fit now, god I don't know how I'm still wearing size 5 jeans in the first place, my body is really dense or something though... it makes it harder to admit there is a problem when I can still mostly wear the same sizes though... but my waist is up like 2-3" ;_;

*hugs* you're not alone. Hope we can get it under control.

Haha I love your avatar! i just went to the grocery store and said screw it! and bought all healthy things that I'm NOT interested in whatsoever. only had like 5 bags and had to pay 41 bucks!!! a few was organic which is always expensive. i probably did this because i was REALLY SAD when i had to go to marshals right before that and buy a pair of Large pants! I tried going to the mall earlier this morning for jeans and i had to go two sizes up in my jeans! i was about to buy them then last minute i said no i can't do this! 1) these jeans are pricey and 2) i can't accept this size I'm now at! thats why last minute i went to marshals and bought a pair of cheap sweatpants instead.

i took my very first pill of paxil today but was told u gain weight on this so i want to lose some weight first, then test out the paxil see if i gain weight. if i do, at least ill have been at a good weight first then i can always stop it if it gets bad.

i just can't keep doing this to myself. i really dont feel good at all gaining weight like this.

My eating is so disordered. I'm joining OA (12 step) after the first of the year and I just joined
a gym.

*trigger warning - weight*
During the holidays is not a good time for me to start a program so I'm trying to be gentle with myself.
I gained 15 lbs over the past year. even more since I turned 40. I'm at 163 ish. I don't feel comfortable
unless I am at 145.

Just trying to eat 3 solid meals and to snack as little as possible.

I will get on track after the New Year. And get ready for my beach vacation in Feb. Yay!

noreally_imfine wrote:

vertices wrote:Awwww I'm in the same place. I am 5'5, was 135, now I am 160. Urgh, last time I was this heavy was at 13 too.

And I've been binging lately. :S

My pants hardly fit now, god I don't know how I'm still wearing size 5 jeans in the first place, my body is really dense or something though... it makes it harder to admit there is a problem when I can still mostly wear the same sizes though... but my waist is up like 2-3" ;_;

*hugs* you're not alone. Hope we can get it under control.

Haha I love your avatar! i just went to the grocery store and said screw it! and bought all healthy things that I'm NOT interested in whatsoever. only had like 5 bags and had to pay 41 bucks!!! a few was organic which is always expensive. i probably did this because i was REALLY SAD when i had to go to marshals right before that and buy a pair of Large pants! I tried going to the mall earlier this morning for jeans and i had to go two sizes up in my jeans! i was about to buy them then last minute i said no i can't do this! 1) these jeans are pricey and 2) i can't accept this size I'm now at! thats why last minute i went to marshals and bought a pair of cheap sweatpants instead.

i took my very first pill of paxil today but was told u gain weight on this so i want to lose some weight first, then test out the paxil see if i gain weight. if i do, at least ill have been at a good weight first then i can always stop it if it gets bad.

i just can't keep doing this to myself. i really dont feel good at all gaining weight like this.

Gurl that is awesome you bought healthy stuff. I didn't do so good last night but now I am eating healthy till Christmas. Maybe will lose some water weight.. I am going to Marshall's tomorrow too actually to buy at least 1 new outfit... don't wanna freak out about it later while traveling.

You can do it. Hope you start feeling better!

here with you sister
im 5'8'' 110 lbs and i eat at night lately cuz im just not hungry during the day...i gain 2 lbs im freaking out. good for you you bought healthy stuff. make sure you eat that and dont just leave it in the fridge
you''get through this somehow just take it easy.

I've had a bad year this year, for diet and exercise.

I'm have never been athletic, but I never weighed more than 120 until I was in my late 20's.

Even now I'm not what anyone would consider "heavy", but I'm in the same situation as far as none of my pants fit, and I don't want to buy bigger pants.

I broke down last week and bought myself 3 pairs of spanx jeans. I had to cuz the only things I have to leave the house in are sweats!

When my spanx arrived in the mail, I immediately tried them on, and I was nearly in tears. The zipper wouldn't zip on one of them, not because they were too small, it was just a sticky zipper, you know how sometimes a new zipper just doesn't glide right away... but still I was soooo upset and angry and had a huge lump in my throat.

Then I feel so dumb for being upset.

*TW*
I constantly swing from one extreme to another. In the mornings, until early afternoon, I tell myself I will change my eating habits and start exercising. Then in the afternoon, another person takes control and says "oh ###$ it. you'll never change. it's not such a big deal." (this is the same self-sabotaging voice that takes over and causes binge shopping, avoiding necessary chores, paperwork, etc.)

Today I cleaned out the fridge with the intention of buying healthy groceries. I still love salads and I have had success in the past with low carb diets, they are easier for me to stick with once I make the initial adjustment. But I don't know where the willpower will come from. I have only once before let myself go this far, and it took a year of strict diet and exercising 5 days a week to get back to where I want to be. :-\

Are you a reader? I really like Jillian Michaels. She has a couple of books that really helped me before. She really explains the science behind a healthy diet, in a way that's easy to understand, IMO.

Good luck!