Borderline Reflective Group anger.

I'm seeing a therapist who is assessing me and referring me after she decides what is appropriate. As someone who suffers from BPD, DID (which hasn't been diagnosed and is being completely ignored) and major depression/elated moods (such I think Is bipolar but my meds - mood stabilisers funnily enough) control those moods) I think that I need something a little more direct than GROUP THERAPY. Borderline isn't even my main issue... My main issue is my alters and underlying issues with them. But no one seems to know anything about DID and just keep ignoring it and referring back to my BPD diagnosis.

I don't even understand the group. How can a ######6 group of borderlines all talking about their problems help me solve through mine any more than posting and reading in this forum can? How on earth can that help with my DID? When i said to her thaf Ive talked to many borderlines on support forums and stuff, she told me that if I went to the group. I would just basically be going with the attiturede that I "know it all" and that I've "been there, done that, got the t shirt". Which i thought was rude as she is belittling my prior knowledge and what I've been doing to help myself.

I said her straight that I don't think group therapy will help me at all. I was told right from the start that psychotherapy would help me so I've been holding out for FOUR YEARS for this and now it's like I'm not gonna get it. I have to go to some stupid group thing. and no matter how much I protested she was just saying that the group therapy is what she was recommending, and basically that if I didn't want that I would have to go to local services (already been through them and they said they weren't specialised enough to deal with me). So I don't want to go back a step only to be told that they can't help me.

I also told her that I thought group therapy was just a way for the NHS to save time and money by treating a lot of people at once. She seemed offended and said "if thats your perspective" and told me it indeed took more time. Though I don't understand how 8 people in one appointment every week for 6 months can be less time consuming and expensive than having to see those 8 people individually once a week for god knows how long. I just think its #######4 and shes trying anything she can not.to give me individual therapy.

She was saying I'm clearly angry. No $#%^. I'm very angry. Been waiting for years and now I'm getting shoved in some stupid group of borderlines even though that's the least of my problems.

When I asked if they covered alters in the group she said yes we cover dissociation. I said do you cover dissociative identity. She hesitated before saying "that's something you can bring to the group if you want".

So no. No, they don't know a thing about it and they expect me to magically be better just by talking about it.

IF THAT WORKED I WOULD HAVE BEEN BETTER 4 YEARS AGO.

I DO NOTHING BUT TALK ABOUT MY PROBLEMS. WHY DO I HAVE TO SIT AND TELL A BUNCH OF STRANGERS WHILE PEOPLE OBSERVE US THROUGH A ONE WAY MIRROR.

AT WHAT POINT DO THERAPISTS SIT DOWN WITH ME AND TRY TO WORK OUT WHY THE ###$ I HAVE ALTERS AND WHAT THE HELL ###$ ME UP WHEN I WAS A KID.

Do they literally know nothing? I'm at the end of my tether here. This specialist department I'm at is the end game for me. There is no where to be referred to from here.

I'm officially ###$.

Update: So sick of waiting for appointments with false hope before having my hope shattered. It was making me miserable so I just rang up and discharged myself. 4 years wasted but I feel so much lighter now that I'm not waiting for something that I know deep down is never coming.