A Newbie

Hi all, just joined after reading a few forums after I googled some support for my BPD. I have been diagnosed a week but been suffering badly for over 28 years. Since being diagnosed I have gone into my shell even more this week and I am struggling to talk to my partner..I told him 4 days after I was diagnosed with BPD that I had it, its not been the best of relationships because of me, and to be honest if it was the other way around I would of left him 18 months ago but he sticks by me and I think this week i've been cold towards him because I think I want him to walk so he can have a normal life as I know I can't.

He is upset and thinks im about to explode at any moment into a full rage...but I don't feel that way this week I feel like I am switched onto standby, im neither switched on or off, im also feeling like I can't even have a conversation with anyone without bursting into tears.

I am 40 and have grown up kids but I hate my life and all it entails. So I have joined here to see if there is a way of seeing a bit of a light at the end of a very long and dark tunnel.

Just offering my support, but I cannot give any advice (I'm terrible at giving advice). You are certainly not alone, loveableangrygirl, in dealing with borderline PD.
This is a good board, and there are lots of supportive people here. I think you found the right place.