Non Feeling

Are most people with BPD non empathetic? Non feeling? Or is the opposite?

I used to cry at movies and feel sad at world news, but never get that upset when people I knew in reality were upset or hurt.. The only times I ever felt genuinely upset was when my dad died, then my mum.. I think.. My dads death was very traumatic to me and possibly partly why I have BPD..

But lately, with the split up of a relationship, I feel like my non-feeling has got much, much worse.. I have to really think about sad things, to get sad.. I feel numb most of the time.. Because I know if I started feeling I wonder never stop.. But it's out of my control, I just don't feel.. No sexual or love feelings.. Barely and for animals.. No joy.. Just sadness, mostly and then at other times, nothing..

I can relate to being non feeling, though for me I chalk it up to dissociating through a lot of my interactions with people. I know that I do still feel emotions, but when I'm interacting with other people the empathy just goes on auto-pilot. I outwardly express emotion, but inside I feel dead. It bothers me a lot actually and makes me feel non-human and that I'm a terrible person.

Yes, I do. Take a look at https://sites.google.com/site/cognitive ... y-disorder

and read the part about the Detached Protector mode and see if that fits you. If it does it will give an explanation as to what is taking place.

Best
-cbox