How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

confused..

by all natural laws, the packet of burger buns i bought should be off by now..

the bb date reads 14/05/14 and there's not a trace of mould today on 24/05/14. wth..?

(and yes.. i should clear the cupboards out more but these escaped me and hid behind some packets of pasta..)..

I feel lonely, one of those moments I want someone around, without any communication, just around.
Tremendous feelings of crying, for no reason.
Feel so much sadness, for no reason, just feel it.

But then I become angry for having this feelings, I feel that I deserve them. Then I feel like hurting myself, I feel that I deserve it.

Then I feel like crying again, now for a reason....

I hate this moments

I hear sounds but are like echos, I see things around me but look unreal, I feel like im standing still while everything moves around me.

I hate it!!!

I hope this passes soon.....

Nervous. And Lonely.

Strangely detached - like everything I DO feel is through a very strong filter...

Went through alot of different emotions in one day.
I feel like hurting myself.

Completely unmotivated to do all the chores I have set to do today.

Incredibly awkward.

I told my b*tch subletter who flaked out last minute to return the keys to the apartment. She did so by just walking into my room. I closed the door but didn't lock it. I'm not sure if she realized it but she caught me masturbating. I just kind of scooted over to her with my belt unbuckled and my jeans zipper down with my laptop attempting to cover it in order to take the keys from her. Neither of us mentioned that nasty, drunken email that I sent her the night before in response to her telling me she was pulling out telling her that she had f*cked me and I plan to take legal action if her deposit check doesn't go through. Hilariously uncomfortable!

I thought this thread needed a little comedy.

Longing.

miradanublada wrote:Went through alot of different emotions in one day.
I feel like hurting myself.

I'm sorry Miradanublada. What can we do to help?

I completely destroyed a $10 lamp 2 days ago. It didn't hurt anyone and made me feel a ton better. I'm not sure that a counselor would recommend it, but to me it's a better option than hurting yourself.

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