How Do You Feel This Moment? *TW*

Repeat.




Flat.

Bored. A little sad.

Darak wrote:Like a complete idiot who needs attention and is going to cut herself otherwise.

Wait...you're a her?

How are u np01?

VivianAlexis wrote:How are u np01?

I can't feel my body. I really feel gone. I could not sleep. too many thoughts of hurting and overdosing...

worse off, I have to go to DBT today. how am I going to hide how I feel from them. I don't want them to hospitalize me or tell my therapist. I fear being hospitalized again.

I can't take this loneliness!!! It's becoming torchurous. I need to be with people. Why am I so lonely!

I can't feel my body. I really feel gone. I could not sleep. too many thoughts of hurting and overdosing...

worse off, I have to go to DBT today. how am I going to hide how I feel from them. I don't want them to hospitalize me or tell my therapist. I fear being hospitalized again.[/quote]

Understandable to fear, but u will be defeating the purpose of therapy. Bad state u are in, please be honest, maybe something good will come of it, meant to be.

There was no therapy this week. So that happened.

I called the hospital to try and talk to someone about this, but I don't think I conveyed this information correctly. They assume I meant that it was the meds that caused it, but the flashbacks that cause me to lose vision and coincidentally my mind like last weekend has been happening since the breakup.

I'm nervous about the callback that they are going to do. I'm actually scared.

star dust wrote:I can't take this loneliness!!! It's becoming torchurous. I need to be with people. Why am I so lonely!

That unfortunately is the name of the game with bpd. It sucks. Mine comes and goes. And it hurts.

What do you like to do as a distraction or for fun? Maybe getting your mind off of it will help out some.

I feel ashamed that I am going behind my psychiatrists back for help since he isn't here.

I feel like a terrible person and he is going to hate me