######6 triggered bad.

I am hanging out with my brother for a week. The topic of his bitch wife came up, and he went into details about insecurities and feelings. He doesn't understand BPD, so when I told him I wanted to take a break from the conversation, he thought I was saying change the subject soon. So he got his last few points across.

I am most of the way dissociated. Auto answering machine Caustic is doing all communication and he doesn't get it.

All my hidden girl drama just came back. Well just the feelings. I don't have context. I still don't remember. I feel frantic, alone, betrayed and unlovable. Etc. I thought I was healthier than this. Wtf.

I am having a hard time interacting with anything outside of my phone. ###$.

Have to remember how to act normal. Have to seem calm, so my crazy doesn't get seen.

Dammit, You are right. Thanks. I am doing better. Still haven't processed it. I need to go to therapy soon.

Sorry. I'm not good with triggered people so I won't say too much.

littlearcher wrote:

katana wrote:Sorry. I'm not good with triggered people so I won't say too much.

this comment made me giggle when i read it with your avatar beside it, katana

Yeah. I pretty much assume Katana is catty with teeth and claws from her pic. Don't cross her or spill water on her freshly groomed coat.

Okay. I was having a hard time, but I am a bit manic and out with old friends I haven't seen in years.


######6 good night! Time to put on my party VIP hat. See you on the other side.