does anyone else ever get this feeling

When im calm i feel like i have no emotions at all like im empty on the inside. I feel like im a robot basically. Does anyone else have this feeling when calm.

absolutely. i crave chaos, so if there isn't any, then my life is programmed like a robot. i'll go out and create chaos just so i can feel like i'm alive.

wineaux wrote:absolutely. i crave chaos, so if there isn't any, then my life is programmed like a robot. i'll go out and create chaos just so i can feel like i'm alive.

Its good to know im not the only one who gets this feeling.

wineaux wrote:i'll go out and create chaos just so i can feel like i'm alive.

My entire existence described in one sentence.

If I can't create any waves in the ocean, I'm nothing but a ghost. (Oh, how poetic!)

I'm quite the opposite, my sense of functioning is gone if there is any sort of chaos going on. I need things to be calm or I will have a complete meltdown.

I'm very rarely calm per se unless I'm alone in a room and even then I tend to have lots of thoughts running. I tend to always be slightly on edge these days because I feel too vunerable if I let my guard down and relax.

I do get the emptiness/devoid of emotions though. It tends to go relatively ok > slight annoyance > major upset > empty > relatively ok.