Where do I go from here....? (may trigger)

Hello Everyone, new to the forum and lost in life....

I've been diagnosed with BPD a few months back. My life is completely upside down and I don't know what to do no more.

So here's the story. I'm 22 male Canadian and I'm having a hard time with bpd. I don't know where to start. I'm in a rut right now, I've been having panic attacks, throwing up, and I am very stressed. I've also been having flashbacks about stuff that happened when i was younger. Now after going through addiction (I still drink...), a few trips to the hospital (suicidal thoughts), I'm in a situation were I'm having a hard time living. I'm in debt financially, lost my drivers license (3 years now), live at the middle of nowhere (only place I can afford, use to take me 1 1/2 hour to go to work), I'm unable to work, i get anxiety attacks that drives me crazy, I didn't speak to my father for about 6 months, I believe that he has bdp too, my mother is continuously denying my feeling about how the treament I got when i was young. They believe that they done everything right, but the fact is that they never listened to me and my feelings, my father was always forcing me to do what he wanted me to do (ex. competition skiing, but i couldn't support it because of anxiety and stress but i was forced). Even when I had trouble with the law, my father forced me to get some fancy laywer at 500$ an hour to then after (try to) collect me even if I dident want the lawyer because it was to expensive.... I got a sports car stolen by my father, to then after say that he dident steal it but I wasent allowed to use it. My life has basically been dictature that I have refused to follow. Now morally I'm completely destroyed and I don't know what to do. I have debts that are killing me with stress but unable work. My familly refuses to help me, everytime I find someone to confide in, the relationship never last, they say they want to help me but craps out half way through, so I find my self alone in $hit i can't deal with. I've tried to get help from doctors and therapy but its not going nowhere. The health system here completly clogged up. Where do i go from here?

Thanks

SteveMan wrote:Where do i go from here?

Thanks

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Welcome.

get a cup of coffee and prioritize your issues in a manner that identifies what symptoms of the disorder you need to address first

Maslow's hierarchy of needs:

a. food
b. shelter
c. sex


(A&B = important now...C = you can figure that out

1. determine if you can reduce alcohol intake alone or get help
2. find friends/family that are empathetic and willing to help
3. get to a local psychiatric center/clinic/hospital and see if you can get DBT

make a plan... a positive plan moving forward

1. Well as for alchool intake, I have a history of substance abuse, and It is ussually on and off, that being said, i'm pretty sure I can lay off the bottle for a while with a bit of will power. Then again.... What kinf of help should I seek? I have already spoke to counsellors about it, but I feel like whatever I do is a short term fix since I'm unable to fix the primary cause... BDP.

2. Seriously, I would love to find a friends/familly that can support me. Family-wise, I have no clue how to do that. I feel like I have been labeled because of my errors, I've been trying to reach out, but I have no clue how too, and my immediate family, well thing are pretty much a mess there.... Any tips?

3. As for DBT, I am willing to give it a try, what do I do, just walking to the doctor and ask?

Thanks

SteveMan