Hi, I'm New....

Hi Everyone,

I'm Zero, a 26y/o F from UK. I have been under the doctors for assorted depression/mental health problems since age 18, and yesterday, *finally* got a proper diagnosis. I wasn't expecting it to be BPD; In fact, I was convinced they were going to say Bipolar.

I have had several major 'meltdowns' in my life; the last one, in April last year, resulted in me being dismissed from work, albeit unfairly. I haven't had the brainpower or energy to pursue a disability discrimination claim. I've been on benefits since, and have lost other jobs on account of my mood swings, depressive episodes and general attitude. I've always felt 'different', even as a child; I did odd things, and was thought of as clever but weird. I was bullied a little at school. I've always suspected something more than just depresssion was wrong with me, though I've been on SSRI's for 9 years, so I now have to very gradually withdraw those, and also the weed I have smoked for a while now; 'til now, it's been the only thing that can slow my thoughts down.

To the best of my recollection, I've never been anuse, though there are big chunks of my earlier years I cannot recall, so I wonder if somethinghappened which I have blocked out.

Anyway, I'm here to learn more about BPD, as although I have an excellent support network, and am quite clued up about MH issues generally, it isn't something I know much about, and am keen to learn. Knowledge is power, right?!

Well, that's me. Look forward to chatting to some of you soon.

Z

Hi Zero,
I don't have BPD but I wanted to welcome you to Psych Forums

Kathy aka sweetngentle

hi zero,

in most cases i would agree with you to find out as much as you can. because knowledge is indeed power.
the thing with bpd is that it's so person-dependent, that i think you should start by finding out what parts of bpd apply to you.

bpd is a very general diagnosis, and includes so many things that it can spin your head around if you just try to find out more about bpd.
research bpd, and drop the sidetracks that don't apply to you.

i was diagnosed about 5 years ago, and have come a long way since. if you have any questions, i'd be happy to answer them to the best of my abillities.

love
rose