To My Fellow Borderlines *Trigger Warning*

I have already told the other admins this, but since I spend most of my time here, I think you folks should know, too. I know I haven't been around much, and I think you deserve to know why. Over the last two weeks, I've been on a major psychological crash.

Early last week was the worst, particularly on Monday, where I was imminently suicidal (I had viable plans underway to not make it through the day). I was still awfully close to the edge on Tuesday, but by Wednesday, I was safe again. I've been flipping from 3/10 to 5/10 since then, so I'm still not doing so hot, but it's better.

I know I've let you all down by not being here to do my job, and I'm sorry for that. Thankfully, this section has a really solid team of mods (Ali, Wineaux, Evol and Jas) who have covered for me, but I know all of this doesn't absolve me from my duties. I sincerely thank those who have covered for me, I apologize to those who I have let down, and I ask for your consideration for just a little while longer, until I can snap myself out of this funk. Frankly, this funk is scaring the s**t out of me.

jb

Don't worry about, you have to put yourself and your own mental health first! I hope you can get through this hard time and just come back when you feel ready. I'll be thinking of you!

I hope you feel better soon. take care of yourself xxx

Hang in there, and know that we'll be thinking of you! Don't rush back. Take your time, and come back when you feel up to it.

wubz ewe!!! misses ewe!! be safe JB!!

JB

I wanted to first say thank you for sharing your story with all of us and being so candid about your present situation. Secondly, I don't think that you should be so hard on yourself. We all go through bumps in the road both BPDers and nons! There is no need for you to feel like you let people down. People (especially on here) are usually extremely understanding when it comes to life struggles. I have always found you to be a very dedicated admin and offer the greatest advice to those who post on her. And my opinion still hasn't changed!

Lastly, I hope that you are taking all the necessary resources and avenues to keep you safe and on the road to mental wellbeing! It takes time I know but there is always a light at the end of the tunnel no matter how minute it maybe, it is still there.

Stay strong and keep fighting it is totally worth it in the long run.

If you ever wanna chat Im around too so just PM me!

T

Are you kidding, Johnny? You don't have to apologise for any of that. We just want you to be ok.

How is life Johnny. Keep us updated. Thinking of you and sending a hug.

JB -


You take all the time you need :0). I hope you had a wonderful weekend yesterday to help you get your mind back in funtastic shape.

PM me anytime. We are ALWAYS here for you!!!


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AMP

Thanks for the weekend, Ali. I needed that. Sorry they lost, though.

I had a bit of a slip last night, but it was an unexpected triggered one, so there wasn't much I could do to avoid that one. Funny enough, it happened at my self-esteem class.

I just have to keep up with my obsession and I'll be okay.