Working around normal and stunning tv girls

Just in from work and was surrounded once again by beautiful women,I watched as they went on tv and I helped them with there presenting and did my job role,I used to be on tv with them but I didn't belong was like a weird odd extra in my mind and so I have managed to work behind the scenes,on the condition I appear several times a night for new minutes,this is where I hurt in my heart,I long to be normal enough to be able to be in industry I love but my face is awful!!!! when I appeared tonight I realised I mentally appolige to viewers and production for having to look at me, I long to shout out my apologies but the world would not allow it....why can't I be normal? Why I watch the girls and I'm in awe of there normal faces and appearance they look human, I resemble a monster on tv and of tv.wish my life was different, now I'm in bed and hate knowing I'm going to face same problem upon waking where do I go, don't even think surgery can make me look human...! It's soo bad, if Antibes awake say hello I'm new here love Lola1986

wow you sound like me! i certainly dont work on tv but i hate going out because so many people are beautiful or "normal". you said you resemble a monster (i doubt that).....that is how i feel. like a monster. like people will get disgusted if they have to look at me (judging from the comments i've recieved, i know that some people do in fact find me revolting to look at). i have a hard time at my job because all the girls there are "normal". some of them are really pretty and i get so distracted (thinking about how i can't look like them, and how lucky they are, how they can do things like date and get married and have kids...i marvel at it....ive never been on a date) and i get so jelouse. i wonder what its like to be them. i know what you mean about laying in bed, dreading having to get out of bed and face the world again. i hope it is some degree of consolation to you that you are "like me" in that we are both struggling deeply with this issue. i am religious, and i believe that being ugly and dwarfed are part of my "crosses to bear." i believe God will make me beautiful in heaven and i greatly look forward to that, in fact i suspect i'll be especially beautiful there (in heaven) because i've been especially ugly here on earth. we dont need to apologize to ANYONE about how we look. it really sucks that society judges a woman by her appearance and if she is not judged as being pretty, they treat her as if she has no value. heck they have treated me lots of times like i'm not even a living being, like i have no rights or value at all, solely based on looks. there was a girl on youtube who has a disfiguring disease and made a video about herself. she obviously is such a sweet little girl...well...many people were leaving comments like "kill it with fire" and mocking her horribly because of how she looks. now i do believe that someday (i mean in the afterlife), the type of people who say stuff like that to other people are gonna get uuuuggglllyy bodies to match. but when that little girl goes to heaven i bet she will be given a stunning body to match her pretty heart. well i know one thing good about being unattractive, we are not superficial. i hate when girls or guys are obsessed with their bodies and all like "look at me look how hot i am". every day is a battle, dont give up, i am in the same battle.

I am supperficial. I'm ugly on the inside and on the outside.

Santiago wrote:I am supperficial. I'm ugly on the inside and on the outside.

santiago- why do you say that? do you follow the golden rule like Jesus taught (do unto others as you would have them do unto you?). thats the most important thing. if you follow the golden rule then you have a good heart.

I don't do Jebus.

I worked last night again and am of tonight so I'll be able to breath in a sense, but I working again wed and thurs night and am dredding it...! It's a beautiful day and all I can think of is how I'm gonna go outside looking like this and post a letter and just simply be alive, listening to how much the girls last night lie there faces and bodies made me feel so out of place, one of them said she
Sunbathed and all the guys were chasing her, they all going on holidays,I havnt been on a hoilday abroad or outside uk EVER! Can't show my body or face to the beautiful countries I long to vist! wat do I do anyone???? Thanks for all your replys been great to have people to talk to that understand my thoughts, dreading work on Wed and thurs night to be anyone else for one day would be amazing x

Lola....Even tho I am a guy, I feel your pain. I see men with handsome faces all around me in the acting world and my real life, and it hurts. I may be tall and have a nice body....but in the acting world, it's all about the face it seems. I always saw myself as a very romantic passionate person, but my face doesn't seem to match with the rest of me, and it holds me back and makes me miserable too.

Like you, I have been on stage and in front of the camera, and yet I feel trapped and held back by this.

It really hurts. I don't want to look like Brad Pitt, Tom Cruise or Johnny Depp.... I want to look like me....but I can't help but think that if my face was more photogenic....that NOTHING could stop me. I'd be a force of nature.

There is so much pressure in this business and in real life for BOTH sexes today.

With more images bombarding us than ever before on tv, magazines and the Internet it is getting harder and harder just to compete in the business let alone in our daily lives if we don't feel handsome or beautiful.

I posted not too long ago that in my opinion:
the "good looks" you speak of are a delusional "standard" that started with what color cloths looked good on color T.V and evolved from there. Outside that moving picture realm, they really don't account for anything.

And, where looks are judged, the judges own a rulebook that's just about as important to me as a one-year old current event.

There's a difference between looks and appearance. And, appearance (involving stature in this case) is universal- more important in the mature world (which turns the media world into a grain of sand).

An example:
If anyone's seen a sports team commercial they show the players (not selected to play because of looks by the way) -you know and recognize them for their appearance in a sports game (universal).

You may recognize them for sexual looks, and correlate them to playing on a sports team, but liking their looks is coincidental- even if you have a following. The correlation to the sports team, however, is universal.

To clarify universality:
A woman wears the wedding dress, coincidentally likes the dress, wears it, and she appears the be the bride (universal).
You meet a stranger and coincidentally find some features striking, he/she appears to be a nice person (universal).

"the rose is a universal symbol for beauty..."
However I think there's another flower out there more beautiful than a rose and you don't like it

You're in the position you're in because someone feels your appearance is valuable- not your looks. And if someone else with "super important" media data believes your looks wont get "important opinionated hits",
then that's out of your control just about as much as the wind blowing away the overhead tarp you're trying to set up for a party.

What you're feeling is just envy- not too far away from a dream or a wish! You're only mentally processing it with your opinion of your face blocking the real dream of appearance on television, which is why its so impactant on you.

If its wearing on you try to separate your dream of being on television and the envy of how you want to look and tackle them individually.