I recently lost everything I hold dear. Most people measure success by the amount of money they make. I always measure it by whether or not you are married. Love is so important for me that it is how I measure my success. So when I lost the love of my life and all my friends abandoned me I felt like giving up. That life holds no more promise or hope and that I will never be successful since I will never be loved.

I will give anything to be loved...

This is so sad.

I think love is success too.

Love is huge. But there is more to life than that and actually until you have laid a real psychological foundation for healthy love, you will keep finding yourself in this state.

I wrote a paper on depression (especially focused on lose of love) that might help give you some perspective. It may help you figure out your problems or at least get the conversation started. Let me know if you want me to link you to it.

Cheers,
RG

The last paper you wrote was totally useless to me, telling me to stare at something then I will forget how ugly I am and that no one wants me. :/