I had 2 wait till the previous posting got up 4 an addendum

-I would like to clarify:The last posting was not meant to give guilt,white guilt or [x ethnicity] guilt of any other kind to anyone.I didn't mean to give any when I talked to my Race and ethnic dynamics teacher who actually IS 2nd generation Spanish (in the correct usage:ppl FROM Spain--->[*Europe*]) and out of the other few Hispanic sutdents there I actually told her around early on in before the 4th class about how I don't entertain my European background.

Oh but that doesn't mean I entertain my Aboriginal bkgrnd too much either.I did that for a little while when I was ~8ish when I learned how I was mestizo.El Salvador was never a hub for the more famous south of Aridoamerica Aboriginals like Incas,Mayans (a lil'bit in the West but barely nxt to the the main hub of Guatamala) or the Aztecs (only around for like ~3 centuries around present day Mexico City,really).Even though I am mestizo or even if I knew “how (much)” Aboriginal I was,I wouldn't be keen on glorifying that either.The history of mestizo's is seperate from either.

More importantly basking in the “glory” of something that I intrinsictly am and that was not “added to” by bits I worked to add it to,esp.something as abstract social construct with a tiny bit beyond nihl biological validity like “race” is something that ain't my style/doesn' roll with me.

-I don't have criticisms only toward White or Sinospheric culture.I have criticisms towards any majority culture.I can develop criticisms towards any majority culture.I can develop criticisms towards any culture.

This includes my own Hispanic culture,which is not as ubiquitous in Souther Ontario as say the Southwestern States but Heaven knows how I with enough exposure and experience contributing to an accumulation of information I would not be reluctant to express it as well.

There's a difference btw a critique and a criticism.Maybe the former is only reserved for artistic stuff.Maybe the latter is open to more negativity not exempting any aggression a person can feel with such sentimental negativity of quarelling and confrontation/aggression being not as common with critique.

That was not my intention/conceptual volition.It was another venting of mine from one of the most private parts of my mind,part that I'm not comfortable with myself for having nor espousing.Let that be assured b/c such a tone as the one I used is one reason I don't like such thoughts surface.I had to overcome my personal reluctance to let this tone be released if it meant I would no longer be procrastinating on letting my bias come out.

One think I'd like make clear:Stereotypes are NOT EQUAL to the personality of a person of that background.Friggin no Liebniz's law of identity of indiscernibles possible there but bad interpretations are.

I wouldn't like anymore of the chest-puffing .b.s. of one ethnicity saying there superior than another the same way I wouldn't like anymore of the chest-puffing .b.s. that is made up (ex.nationalism) to veil/say how plainly things s---k in a country which should be able to leave when it get's dangerous.

My apologies for which you are free to take your way and thank you for the avenue of utterance.

***Watching Elysium end right now...most of this msg was made yesterday when I worried the previous posting wouldn't go up(seriously)..don't ask me about how an overpopulated Earth divded btw poor on planet and rich in space with an Hispanic high .L.A. Resonates with me when I can also think about how the director of “District 9” is reusing a lot of his previous movies elements.

This recent event http://timesofindia.indiatimes.com/world/middle-east/Last-minute-reprieve-Iranian-woman-spares-life-of-sons-killer-with-a-slap/articleshow/33877245.cms and how the woman said the the "the "slap was the space between revenge and forgiveness."


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I'm going to admit about one of my bias:

There are times when I write and when I've written in the past certain things that I write out of negative bias to East Asian (more specifically Sinospheric) culture.

I feel compelled to bring out my criticism to it partly b/c of the positive sterotyping I see of it that goes unheeded and with nigh a drop of true questioning b/c of what I think (or at least what I've gotten to see in my life) is a social desirability bias to accepting anything/having to feel compelled to like whatever is done in Sinospheric culture and letting it fly/be done.

I have said before for my own private audio-logs,I said this to my siblings and both those times it got to the point of angry rants which might've been expressed to my Race and ethnic dynamics teachers had we had more time when after class ended early in the semester I talked about this to her on her way back to her office as the day ended.What she said though was to the effect of "everything comes down (importantly) to the 'vertical mosaic' " though ..:[ *sigh* I wish I could've found way more times to bring this thinking process I have my problems with.A takeaway though?, ..sometimes I honestly think that ..

An uncomfortable/private part of my mind goes "East Asian (more specifically Sinospheric ppl have won the 'white man's heart' over as a respectable 'race' (social sciences knows that no such biological definition exists ""-_-) b/c

-paralleling history of social exploitation and stratification

-xenophobia..God that needs alterations ""-w- ..that s---- is old

-let individual go strutting around "thinking your all that"--refer to paragraph 2 and in the case of white European colonization....there's prob.a few other things I regrettably have forgotten to mention.

You wanna no another *one* reason why there should no longer be any of that "I think this 'race' (**ethnicity ""=_=**) is superior" bullc---p?.B/c God forbid that it ever goes down that the article on White privilege in the "Unequal Relations 7th edition" by Augie Fleras and Jeam Leonard Elliot,pg.50-ish "Whiteness matters:racializing whiteness as race privilege" article ever becomes an article with added details titled "[x]ness matters:racializing [x] as race privilege" substituted by ANY other groups whether South Asian,Polynesian,Black,"Latino" or East Asian as I worry ppl (notably seen by my friggin Generation Y) are letting it becoming.You dumb a---h---s ">_< >8( !.Cut that .b.s. out,PLEASE!.^1

(self-flattering or self-narcissism.. imagining myself saying this stuff with the voice John Travolta did for his "From Paris with Love" and "Taking of Pelham 123" voices to add more attention grabbing compellingness.. God I can be an absorbed a---h--- when it comes to how I imagine myself being presented as..)

And sort of how like there's the saying "the right kind of White" which implicatively means Northern Europeans like Germanic language speakers in regions like Germany,Scandinavia and the non-Continental European countries--the .U.K.,Republic of Ireland AND Iceland^2 most ppl unwittingly go with a thinking for the East Asian automatically=only Sinospheric cultures, which I don't...

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The hyperbolic time chamber from the "Dragonball series". A series I have conflicted,mixed to negative feelings on.

A chamber where "one year inside the chamber is the equivalent to one day on the outside..1 minute of real time is approximately six hours in the chamber."

In the franchise "[t]he Chamber can only be entered for two days (or two years) at a time, if anybody attempts to stay longer, they will not be able to exit, leaving them in nothingness and not allowing anyone else to use the door. "

limitations aside my point if I can't travel back in time I'd like to be in a place where there is a significant time dilation--where I don't age too.

`_` aahhh...the things I would do before I left.Prepared.

"You're never ready. You go when you're ready enough."-Hyrum Graff/Harrison Ford,Enders Game but dany 'u' HOW I'd be ready enough.

Compensation.All that lost time found `u` .

`_` AAwww heck yeah,I love this part of this song http://youtu.be/a69QQwI6F4w?t=5m1s .This https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3ekOznhZkhU song "Brights eyes" is a "calm down" song for me

The fallacy of relative privation/http://tvtropes.org/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Main/AppealToWorseProblems ,I have identified.No longer will it be a source of fatalistic statements...

saying that ,saying stuff like that sorta feels like lying to me at times.B/c you wanna get rid of it but cant guarantee that it will be gotten rid but you wanna do it but if you don't your left with it,what you said was a lie and it might've stuck with you b/c of the "badness"/by the "vice" (I'm saying that funnily instead of "by virtue of") of lying which is something you didn't want to be true,something you worked toward trying to not let be true but it manifested itself and can be called a lie as a result.

.. a long time ago someone said "he [I] think in circles".I hate being written off like that ""=_=.If your gonna do that plz at least give a thorough explanation like I like'em.Than again I'm NOT entitled to such a thing am I ?.

I don't like how I fixate on the bad things from the high school I graduated from.~5 yrs now and about to be shut down in like ~2 .Why the heck fixate on that,when SO much good was there,so much more comfort and undisturbing-ness unlike the high school before that ?.It's gonna get shut down soon anyways so the crowds you knew and remember from those days will have less of a "gathering point" already from that,not that you should revel in that loss of a school,a nice school..

.. ugh,I don't know.A factor to be ressolved.
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It's better to be skeptical than to be hateful (imo) b/c when you try to always be impartial and inclusive to everyone (if not with the added component of being loving,like being more extending in your love to family members you don't like) AND remove the component of spite or even vexation,the lack of ability to include ppl/self-limitation you have of excluding someone is removed,as is being abrupt to judgement and evaluation that is poorly done.

That is b/c aversion (*hostile* aversion-->hatred) is removed^6 making a person have more space,be more open and be more receptive to information. Information in higher quantities, as looking for authentic information that is^1 accurate and precise, which will sooner be come across^2 b/c of the removal of hostile aversion.Now the process of looking for that information is still dependent on the person's individual methodicalness but it all the more possible b/c of an absent aversion to a subject.How a person evaluates something,identifies constituent comprised elements and factors,what "data within" is valid or not^3 and other heuristic practices and techniques still depend on personal discretion.

Oh and don't do the skeptism *out of* anger.That^4'll comprise the integrity of learning activity/activities/action for a "clouded gauging instrument"^8 that will have less^9 disclosure of information picked up by it

as it's probing and might make it sooner be/prone to be utter/total dismissing disbelief instead.

as it is probing and might make it sooner be/prone to be utter/total dismissing disbelief instead.

oh, in both cases though,less sensitivity^10


From such doubt as made within/by skepticism you don't take for granted or with full acceptance^11 what might be present without ^5 transforming information into knowledge along the way.^7

In ppl with forensic oriented mindsets (ex.police officers) what is called skepticism is/can be called "suspicion" at times.

Careful now everyone.Being skeptical in certain ways can keep or even maintain ignorance and incompletion .

Times like these when I say or write things so unambigiuosly^12 is like the closest I get to "self-confidence" and having confidence in what I say.

In natural sciences you always are looking for "cause making" (causal..causality,causation) reasons and stuff for why things are and have come to be. In social scis and humanities that can't always be done and what's left to do/look at is structural.Mere structural.Mere structure.Mere structure (to gaze at ).

Doesn't that/does that mean you get full totality undivided,left at you foot though ? .

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Hmm.. .--> V or..a connective word implicating disconjunction for representing connections,alternatives,a different rephrasing and not unlike how I've come to use the "slash"/ symbol..how come I use it so often?

^1 "textured by" accuracy and precision..I feel tempted to go speak in a bt more literary a way but I won't b/c I'm trying to be in a more informative light

^2 or alternatively easier to find/taking less effort to find..

^3 whether it's good or bad

^4 Antagonistic or possibly even adversarial...

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