Right now I'm in a different state of mind.my mind is racing and it doesn't help that I've been binge drinking in the last couple of days. I feel numb yet overwhelmed with emotions. I can't function at all. The new coviv19 virus doesn't make things easier. I haven't been online for years in this forum but I need to reach out to others who are in the same boat as me. Trying to make the best of it but it's hard when you have to isolate yourself from the rest of the world.