I tried to talk to 3 friends about what was going on


everyone has their own problems, right?

god what is with that



WHY CAN'T I JUST GET MENTAL HEALTH IN AN ER WITHOUT BEING MADE TO BE A LEPER. WHAT THE ###$ IS WRONG WITH AMERICAN HEALTH CARE.

is no point living if I will never get out of here


the last thing i want to do is leave my dogs here

but right now

i don't wanna be alive


i am over it


the #######4 the lies

goodbye

has ever gone out of their way to help me get out of this house even though countless people know...


i hope i ######6 die tonight.

I don't want to say too much more about this just yet, but I want this thought to flow through me, if only to try a new way of looking into my anger.

hope everyone is having a good day

I stuffed my face with food, even though I was doing so good about eating 3 regular meals a day, and now my stomach has flared up, and this is just the worst.


As if it couldn't get worse, I have to send in a feces specimen to the lab on Monday and I haven't gone since two days ago because now I am nervous about it. I know this is too much information but seriously no one else in my life cares (or they think it is so, "Ew." ...) so now you all get to read about it, lucky you.


I keep telling myself that having answers is better than no answers but I just don't see how this could get worse. How will I ever have a normal dating life or a relationship (the thought is unbelievable to me) with these health problems! It's mortifying! Sometimes I could just faint at the thought... I hope all of this pain and discomfort are over soon... I feel so discouraged tonight.