Those of you who have read this blog will know that asking for help is something of a nightmare for me and that I have painted myself into a corner over the last few years.
Forunately few of you know that in the last few weeks, as liberation looms, I have been suffering a living nightmare of my childhood horrors. And having to beat them again (or if that for the first time?)
The unfortunate thing is I have let my nightmares affect how I interact with people who have had a positive effect upon me here. Causing at least one fellow member here to flee back into their living nightmares from which I was trying to help them to escape.
Perhaps it was my delusions of grandeur leading me to believe I was assisting these members. But the pain I have caused these members is real.
I wish I could fix the problems I have caused. I don't think that is possible. I clearly betrayed at least one fragile trust and destroyed the beginnings of a friendship.
So to those members I have tortured I apologise. Unreservedly. You'll know who you are, if you read this.
If I can help in any way, I hope you will let me know.

[quote="whybother"]Those of you who have read this blog will know that asking for help is something of a nightmare for me and that I have painted myself into a corner over the last few years.
Forunately few of you know that in the last few weeks, as liberation looms, I have been suffering a living nightmare of my childhood horrors. And having to beat them again (or if that for the first time?)
The unfortunate thing is I have let my nightmares affect how I interact with people who have had a positive effect upon me here. Causing at least one fellow member here to flee back into their living nightmares from which I was trying to help them to escape.
Perhaps it was my delusions of grandeur leading me to believe I was assisting these members. But the pain I have caused these members is real.
I wish I could fix the problems I have caused. I don't think that is possible. I clearly betrayed at least one fragile trust and destroyed the beginnings of a friendship.
So to those members I have tortured I apologise. Unreservedly. You'll know who you are, if you read this.
If I can help in any way, I hope you will let me know.[/quote]

Sending you a hug whether you want it or not whybother!!

Hope you're okay!

Hugs

mystic

I should have a look at this more often. It's a week later and I have only just realised there are comments ......... Wouldn't of noticed now either had I not been about to add another blog
sorry mystic