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well here I am again !
   Wed Apr 15, 2020 9:11 pm
my life!are all the shades of the rainbow!
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well here I am again !

Permanent Linkby unitywithin on Wed Apr 15, 2020 9:11 pm

I camae hare to get to know otheres but its hard to add into the lines that are already going. This week sits been about me beiing able to function with out family here to drill me on what I can and cannot do. My family has the veiw that I can not heal or grow there for if I'm acting different a new alter is out. I know that we are more then just a few but come on if I can tell whats been happening then give us a break ! the cycle to heal can be ongoing in my life at the same time thase areound me feel and treat me as if growing as a small group is totallly out of their reality base. I know that the pass can not be forgotten and that they make us who we are but they are out in left feild that I can n ot be a funtioning aduilt. I woke up and all the fun stuff we got to entertain our selfs left us bored. we got to the 3rd to have resorces for other thing to do. this time if year I'm usally working out side on the yard.
Now Im learning new things but there is still the inner fear of being caught doing something that I was denied in the past to do.

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my life!are all the shades of the rainbow!

Permanent Linkby unitywithin on Thu Apr 09, 2020 11:03 pm

this with be free hand so sorrry for parts that are hard to fallow.

I did not feel comfrotable starting a journal on the list. Its not that I need to share this part of me foe valadation but to come to terms with the truth of who I am. i did this before and I got alot of trolls ridding me because my story was not their own.

I was born Verna ann in 1969. my family and those around me had me so program that I missed the bulk of my life just being what they wanted me to be. it was not until my son was enjured by a family memeber that those within me started to fight for the right to heal. Now almost 20 years later, If I had known what that intitles I dont think I would have been so headstrong to heal to protect the body's child. The best thing is that now I'm not remembering abuse with each atemp to control me evven by the body's child.I now have a sence of peace that I have so little memoory of duing the past. So here I am Learning to speak out on a site that will allow me to be heard without the judge ment of others.

My son was growing up while I fought for my freedom. those around me built their reality or story based upon what they wanted me to be. I live with h im but for now I have the house to my self. cross your fingers that during the 5 months that I will find a way to be independent from him until he can come to terms with me as I am not what he was raised to believe in. :?
Last edited by Johnny-Jack on Mon Apr 13, 2020 4:50 pm, edited 1 time in total.
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