I camae hare to get to know otheres but its hard to add into the lines that are already going. This week sits been about me beiing able to function with out family here to drill me on what I can and cannot do. My family has the veiw that I can not heal or grow there for if I'm acting different a new alter is out. I know that we are more then just a few but come on if I can tell whats been happening then give us a break ! the cycle to heal can be ongoing in my life at the same time thase areound me feel and treat me as if growing as a small group is totallly out of their reality base. I know that the pass can not be forgotten and that they make us who we are but they are out in left feild that I can n ot be a funtioning aduilt. I woke up and all the fun stuff we got to entertain our selfs left us bored. we got to the 3rd to have resorces for other thing to do. this time if year I'm usally working out side on the yard.
Now Im learning new things but there is still the inner fear of being caught doing something that I was denied in the past to do.