Old host is back sometimes it frightens me being taken back to highschool.
for us high school wasn't that bad.
we were picked on alot sometimes even by teachers.
but we were lucky in many ways.

Being the losers the wierdos we made a group of not the smart popular or anything.
Just a bunch of plain losers. he could of had a spot but we chose not to partake in it.

there was about 5 as most of the group and others would come in and out.
Best years I swear! we wagged we didn't care about anything.

Now I'm to happy to be out of there I'm working not socialising with many people.
got my family and my few close friends.

we've come so far but I'm not going to mention the years between the end of highschool and work >.<

I'm going to put another warning I'm talking about the human centipede 2
[color=#BF0000]Horror, gore, Abuse, sexual abuse mention of crimes, serial killers[/color]

Okay so last night I was watching the human centipede 2. (I didn't watch the end someone was freaking out and the horror section people were getting triggered)
It was grotesque in the most disturbing sense 'real' in someways . someone did some research before making this film.

But I felt very agitated and felt a connection slightly to the main character. I would never do such horrible things. But his struggle with sexual abuse, isolation, Psychological abuse...etc.
Made me think how much can a kind word or showing some common human decency would have changed this. I know it was just a movie. but then I started thinking about the serial killer documentries I have watched most of the "most evil" series and how being isolated and abused. destroyed what ever humanity was once there. Or never allowed to form.

In a horrifying odd way I'm glad I developed DID this amazing condition. Or else I think sometimes maybe my name would have been put down in the books for a heinous crime.
it makes me want to help somehow against theses things.