i've been having flashbacks for the last week..
not hugely rough since i'm used to them now.. and each time i get flooded like this, it takes less and less time to recover.


Seeing C though.. I spent the whole day swirling in my mind.. wanting to shout, cry.. rage.. sob.. going through that whole time over again..
i was just a kid really.. just needing someone to care for me - but no-one did.
that whole family screwed me over completely.. I look back on that and it's unbelievable, i mean who actually does that anyway?

apart from you of course S.. i don't know if you're still out there, i assume you're not since C said that 'she's got noone left now''..
but thankyou. the only one with any decency out of all of you.. thankyou for trying.