by ridingthewtfbus on Tue Jun 17, 2014 6:18 pm
It's hard to believe it was right around this time several years ago when things really started to get shaky... God I loved her so much. I would have done anything for her. I married her because she was unlike any woman I had ever met. Smart, funny, outgoing, attractive, very extroverted but in a "I'm blossoming because of you" kinda way. I felt on top of the world. I had married the woman of my dreams. She seemed to have limitless potential. Nothing could have ever come between us. Our children were perfect. I had the perfect job, perfect wife, perfect kids, perfect family, perfect house, the perfect life. I had no idea I had actually married a mirage.... An illusion. My world was turned upside down. My kids. OMG my poor kids! Why?! Why would she do this? What did I ever do to deserve this? Why does she hate me all of a sudden? Did she ever love me? Am I literally just a paycheck? She just wanted to have kids and lock me in baby jail? How embarrassing! Why can't I have what everybody else has? What kind of damage will this do to my children? Why won't her entire family even speak with me now? She's crazy! There has to be something wrong with her! See! See! The Psych reports on both of us even spells it out!!!! I've literally been vilified and no one will listen to me! And now the FOC has sided with her?!?! Why God Why?!?! This is insane!!!!
....I will never forget how painful that experience was. I've come a long way since then. Time certainly does heal all wounds. My life today is bearable again. I worry about my kids, but I know they know their daddy loves them. And regardless of how little they get to see me, I will always do everything in my power to be strong for them, provide for them, and let them know how much they mean to me. She can try to pretend I don't exist if she wants. She can continue alienating me with everyone she knows if she wants. No matter what though, my kids will know daddy loves them.
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