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by **quietgirl2538** on Sun Jan 18, 2015 1:58 am

I am still not where I need to be at mentally. I hate this, I don't want to hate myself, but I do hate this suffering. I have a new medicine, an antidepressant, Brintellix. It took it's time to finally start working and it did lift my mood, but I need more of a lift still. Going to see doctor this Friday and see what he says. Crossing my fingers things improve a lot.

by **quietgirl2538** on Mon Dec 08, 2014 5:58 pm

I have my 3 month appt. with Dr. H.

I am not in a good place right now. :cry:

by **quietgirl2538** on Sun Nov 30, 2014 2:47 am

It's been a long time since I posted. I am experiencing some depression. I go up and down. Some days are not so bad and others are bad. I am back on the Latuda 120mg. The Abilify was not helping at all. It was very hard for me when I was switching medications back and forth. I was not in a good place. Regular people just can't understand how awful it can be to go from one medicine to another and the pain it causes those of us who go through it. At the same time, I can understand that only if they experience what I go through, that is the only way they will ever truly understand. There is no other way.

We just had Thanksgiving. It was really nice. I got to enjoy it several more days eating lots of leftovers. My diet went out the window for 3 days straight. I know I've gained a pound or two. But I am happy. :wink:

by **quietgirl2538** on Sun Sep 28, 2014 11:55 am

Yes, I did change in mood. about a week into the month I had intense feelings, agitation, irritability. For now, things seem to be subsiding and I am starting to feel like my normal calm self. This is the second time this has happened. I also switched medications from Latuda to Abilify. I hate latuda. For a few different reasons but I asked the doctor to switch me to Abilify. So, those intense feelings lasted about 3 weeks then they began to go away. I hope this doesn't happen much. It's very inconvenient.

by **quietgirl2538** on Mon Sep 08, 2014 10:27 pm

I am beginning to be a "bubbly" me. It feels good to be well. I don't worry about an impending doom of a dip into depression once again. Sure I will probably hate life and hate feeling so depressed once I get to that point. But for now I will relish the freedom of feeling well, in terms of the bipolar. I have been listening to music again. Having a puppy gives me great joy instead of seeming like only work. I know my house needs much tidying up, but it will get done. At the same that I write this I have a small fear I will be writing something very opposite in the near future. But that's ok, for now it's all good.

seen some improvement

Not in a good place

Thanksgiving 2014

intense feelings

Maybe this time, being well will stick around much longer

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