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by **peaklite** on Sat Feb 08, 2014 8:24 pm

Feeling good but a bit lonely, which is kind of stupid since I just said no to going and hanging out with a friend...
My gf is getting drunk abroad without me with a guy there who says he loves her... that's annoying me. She said she wouldn't drink because of him but now she seems to have forgotten. It's inevitable she's gonna get drunk so i'm gonna have to suck it up and hope she respects me enough to not do anything stupid and then I'll be able to trust her more.

by **peaklite** on Fri Feb 07, 2014 4:30 pm

Nothing interesting to update on recently
Girlfriend went away last week and she's back tomorrow so obviously I've been worrying whether she's been cheating on me etc. but I know (well i hope) it's all my mind playing games

by **peaklite** on Mon Feb 03, 2014 10:00 pm

It really helps control my emotions because I can come back here, read what I wrote in the past and it assures me that I'm just overreacting and everything I think will happen won't happen in reality

by **peaklite** on Sun Feb 02, 2014 10:45 pm

In a bad mood but nothing too bad. There's always going to be someone better than me for her, she's going to see someone better looking than me and flirt with him, or someone more intelligent, or better at sex etc. and I can't stop that. She'll always see someone better than me in some way and I see her as perfection, to me she is the embodiment of all I want but I doubt she feels that way about me too, even if she is in love with me.

by **peaklite** on Fri Jan 31, 2014 6:40 pm

Had a few bad dreams but on the whole been good recently... Obviously I always have the background worrying but I push it out and try and smile.

Overall good.

Nothing interesting

This blog/diary

Annoyed

Good feeling

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