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by **peaklite** on Tue Mar 17, 2015 12:29 am

i've been feeling nothing recently but stress and anxiety from school has got to me. i find myself missing her more and more as the days go by. i find myself getting jealous again and i don't even speak to her, i still check up on her $#%^. why cant i get over this girl? this might just be temporary cause of all this stress but i don't know. i just want someone to be there for me, even though i say i don't want to get back with her deep inside i know if she came and spoke to me i'd be happy as ###$

by **peaklite** on Sat Mar 14, 2015 5:44 pm

it's been like 6/5 months now since i last updated/broke up and i feel a lot better now. in some ways i still miss her but not in a full way, i don't cry over her. lucky snapchat removed bestfriends so i don't get the temptation to check anymore. i've spoken to her a couple times since at school but nothing bit, she gave me a lift back from school at one point for unknown reasons and we just spoke. one of my friends says that she wants to be friends again but although i feel like i should hate her i really don't mind anymore.

by **peaklite** on Sun Oct 12, 2014 10:39 pm

It's been like a month or something now. We talked for a while a couple days after the breakup where we discussed getting back together and I said yes. She didn't actually ask to get back with me even though she said she wanted to, so we haven't. We barely speak now though. I see her around at school but I'm just nice to her. The worst part is seeing her snapchat best friends change lol. I feel fine now. Sometimes I feel like tearing up but it never comes, which is good. I've downloaded tinder and I've focused on talking to other girls and going out with my friends, and life is going good at the moment. The last 10 months have been some of the best and worst moments of my life, moments I don't think I'll forget.

by **peaklite** on Fri Sep 05, 2014 3:15 pm

She broke up with me. No real reason, she said she needs space and that I, yes, I, wasn't happy therefore she wasn't. I insisted I was but she didn't accept so I guess there is something else going on. But I don't care about that, it's over now. She said she doesn't want it to be forever but I can't be there as insurance for her, that if her life fails she can come back to me.
I'm not even upset as I've been in the past, over the 9 months of us I've cried so much about me thinking she didn't love me that it hasn't even sunk in properly the day after, even though this time is for real. I still love her and I think I'll always miss her, even if I don't love her forever. We shared too many good times to simply forget about, first kiss, virginity, everything else. I'm thankful to her for what she has gave me, it's been a great experience.
The hardest part will be saying no if she decides to come back to me.
I guess this blog is over for now, until I find something else which triggers me as bad. My symptoms were lessening which explains why I haven't made as many blog posts recently, but I guess that doesn't matter anymore.

by **peaklite** on Sun Aug 24, 2014 4:48 pm

absolutely 100% convinced my girlfriend is bored of me. she is always in a mood and never wants to get physical with me. she says things in arguments and i just think she wants me to break up with her but i can't.

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