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by **peaklite** on Wed Nov 04, 2015 9:49 pm

in a good mood recently
some bad memories brought up in my mind a few times
holiday was a good time to relax

by **peaklite** on Mon Oct 26, 2015 1:19 am

won't be back til the 2nd from Tuesday
gonna be annoying because missing halloween parties. i hope gf doesn't go to any parties

by **peaklite** on Sat Oct 24, 2015 10:16 pm

i'm just going to have to try and not dwell on things she says
not seeing her for 10 days as we are going on holidays that overlap

by **peaklite** on Thu Oct 22, 2015 12:06 am

so i've been going rather well the past week or so i've been slightly triggered a couple times by my own obsessive thoughts but no crying, no complete rage.
on saturday i had sex with my girlfriend, the first time i have in a year and the first time for her ever. knowing that i have had that experience with her kind of improves my trust in her, it sounds kind of bad, but because i'm her first it seems like she'd want me more and also makes me more confident in myself as i know i have 'one up' over here (i know that sounds bad, but it's just a way to describe it, i'm not using her)
so yeah everything is going swell

by **peaklite** on Fri Oct 16, 2015 10:21 pm

had a dream with my ex in it. in the dream i was still with my current gf. i sat next to her and said hi, how have you been. it was kind of awkward. i felt like crying in the dream and felt kind of sad when i woke up, even though i wouldn't say i loved her anymore.

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