up at 3am drinking tea, school tomorrow but luckily i can function on 0 sleep, feeling sad
i feel like my abandonment issues stem from myself. i realise that i am exactly what i don't want my partner to be like. the way i act, on the internet, to my friends, the things i think about. if my partner acted like me and i could read her thoughts, we probably wouldn't be together
it isn't even anything specific but i'm just a hypocrite in my values in a relationship