so i've been going rather well the past week or so i've been slightly triggered a couple times by my own obsessive thoughts but no crying, no complete rage.
on saturday i had sex with my girlfriend, the first time i have in a year and the first time for her ever. knowing that i have had that experience with her kind of improves my trust in her, it sounds kind of bad, but because i'm her first it seems like she'd want me more and also makes me more confident in myself as i know i have 'one up' over here (i know that sounds bad, but it's just a way to describe it, i'm not using her)
so yeah everything is going swell