Hi I'm 15 and a half and I have a burning question on my mind. Am I a Pedophile or do I just have POCD. I have severe obsessive compulsive disorder and was diagnosed not long ago. most of my intrusive thoughts are sexual but I also have some religious ones. I heard you have to be at least 16 to be diagnosed with pedophila but I'm still wondering. lately I been having intrusive thoughts about my best friends little sister. About maybe 2 or 3 years ago when I was 12 or 13 I masturbated with her in my head
a few of times at the time she was maybe 5-6. Anyways now when I try to masturbate she pops into my head intrusively and causes me great distress. just thinking about touching her inappropriately makes me cringe and makes me feel sick . I heard intrusive thoughts while masturbating is a symptom of OCD (which I have really bad). This exact situation has happened before but with family members and men which caused me discomfort but not on the level this bothers me. I am also a porn addict so if this might relate to my problem please say. I suspect that its my OCD but I not sure. I really into girls my own age and have this biggest crush on this girl in my PE class. I would never hurt a child nor ever touch anyone inappropriately. I'm just so afraid