I have been having manic episodes which quite frankly I have been enjoying quite a lot peppered with deep pits of depression with the black dog holding me down by the throat and not letting me go for days followed by flying high again for days but during more lucid moments I recognized this for what it was -- quite dangerous and called my doctor. He has adjusted my meds and I am scared that I'm gonna be a zombie. I know I have to trust him, but I'm really scared tempered with this stupid addiction to liking that feeling that I feel when I'm manic, but it's soooooooo dangerous. I drive toooo fast I do stupid things like spend excessive amounts of money that I do not have and lots of impetuous things that I won't go into but it's just not what I need to be doing so I have made the decision to follow the doctors orders. Then why do I have such trepidation? He has taken me off of my Cymbalta for number 1. I haven't been off of Cymbalta in years I'm scared of withdrawal. Does anyone have anything positive to tell me? Anything? Anything at all?