why do I say that?, because I am mature and know exactly what has brought me to this point in my life that I prefer the alternative lifestyle to normal (vanilla) life. It is my release to all the social sadness in the world, its my "happy" place, and therefore, I can help others. I am a sadist, but only use it to help others get intouch with, and embrace they're darker aspects of they're personality. p.s. "darker", does NOT mean evil.