Hello. Completely different today! I'm feeling very happy and I want to say that I'm proud, because I actually responded to a few threads. It was just in the Just For Fun category so nothing serious, but I'm happy. I think I have 6 posts on the forums now. That makes me happy.

Reading my post from yesterday makes me feel silly. I guess I didn't want anyone to think I was writing for attention or anything. I just have never had any opportunity to be real about what goes on in my mind sometimes and when the words started to come out, to me, it felt like " ohh poor baby" *sarcastic complete with eye roll* but you know what. The 2 commentors made me realize this is what my blog is for. To say what I want and not worry about if someone thinks I'm being whiny. I know my true intentions here and that's all the counts.

So for anyone who checks this out, here are just some of the things I have to deal with at times. (outrageous mood swings, having vivid memories of things that never happened to me, night terrors, paranoia, the feeling that I'm not real(?), the feeling that others are not real (this is mostly my cat, but sometimes it happens with people), not remembering things as real, but as if they were a dream or a movie, and commonly the feeling that i'm being watched as if I'm in a movie. (this is currently happening by the way..), and then we have general depression.

Okay I think that's all! lol It seems weird that I'm actually going to put this out in the universe. I've never had to put those into words, so sorry if they're a little weirdly phrased. I don't know the technical names for things. Okay I'm gonna hit Submit now before I erase this!

-Lenni