I have a big problem with verbally abusing my boyfriend. its to the point to where if I don't get what I want, I call him names that I shouldn't be calling him, threaten him and physically tear him up, yeah, I hate it and that is why I need some feedback and some help on finding ways to change this ugly feature about myself. I have been this way my whole entire life, and I cant seem to fix it no matter how hard I try. I grew up being abused in almost all types by my family and so that is what I learned to follow. its ugly and gets me no where in life and it needs to end. I never knew how much I could hurt someone who cares about me so badly with my words. I have a bad mouth and need a fixin. I grew up with a father who bought my love by giving me anything and everything that I could have wanted and it stuck and still does. I am so sick of abusing the one man I truly fell in love with and need some serious advice as to what I need to do to fix it, I can now admit (thank god) that I don't always get whatever I want and even though I wish I did, it is never going to happen and is unrealistic thinking.
thank you for your time and please help me