I love this forum, i have a lot of respect for everyone on here. I am so glad i have you guys. Every time I feel misunderstood or rejected or anything at all, I think of this place. You guys are helping me a lot and I've just recently joined.

My ex, my friends, my therapist...everyone seems like they don't understand me. It is becoming so frustrating for me. I feel like i am extending my hand out to people but they reject it...i feel like everyone is going further away from me and i just feel like crying. I am losing everyone. Yet, when i bring this up with my ex, my friends, (haven't told my therapist yet but I'm sure he will say the same) they all say that it's not true. They say they are not rejecting me and I'm not extending anything...but i feel like I'm doing everything in my power. Why do things seem like it is so great but in a few hours i am falling flat on my face? It is so triply sometimes at how quickly everything changes. One minute i love life and the next thing i know i just want my death to come sooner. it's not like I'm exaggerating ...other people probably think i am (such as my ex who still talks to me) and i've given up talking to my friends. They tell me they feel the same way as me, so i just go with the flow and don't bother explaining them my situation. Is it my fault..am i not doing things right? Or is it other people? I feel like i am in some life game and somebody will one day come out and say HEY WE WERE ONLY JOKING WITH YOU, WE LOVE YOU AND THIS IS ALL OVER NOW SO DON'T WORRY!

When will this be over?