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why I have problems, part2So the first of 2010 I dealt with the grief and loss of my parents, it was difficult and I started meditation and found support in forums like these, even on facebook. It seems writing about this helps me. But after a year went by I stopped seeing my therapist, started drinking, over eating and now shoplifting! a complete self sabotage trip, I still take my medications (Xanax, and Celexa) but have not been able to go back to therapy. I was doing so good, I had a good feeling about my place in life and had a good job, but I just de-railed, and I don't know what triggered this 'poor me' thing. When I look at all the troubles in the world I know I'm blessed. When I'm in with my therapist I feel a bit whiny, like my problems are trivial and who cares anyway...so I don't know what will get me out of this self sabotage, self loathing, not caring attitude. I have an appointment next month, I think maybe I should change therapists and come clean about the money stuff...IDK. thanks for reading
(sorry for any typos)-J
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