I Hate the feeling to cut.

Good Morning All
I am doing pretty good. Hope you all are too

I want to cut. It's been awhile since I have, but I want to so bad. I miss it.

I have been trying to quit smoking. I made it 4 days and only smoke 1 cigarette. Than I screwed up and my brother bought me a pack of cigarettes. I ended up smoking them and bought another pack and finished the last one @ 8:10pm tonight. So I am going to try again and stop smoking. I quit a few years back for about 3 years so I know I can quit again. I am under so much stress and I don't want to add to it but I know I must quit I haven't had a drink since the 2nd of this month also so. I don't drink much anymore, like one or two times a month and it no more then a 12 pack of tall boys. The was the last time I cut too. So the stress is on!!! I have been doing a lot praying too and I really do think it helps. So, with Gods help I can make it though it!!!! After all, I raised Special Needs Twins which they are 28 years old now. Oh I can't forget my 18 year old son,and thats a long story in it self. LOL. Did I mention I have been a single dad for 18 years, Anyway, thanks for listening to some of my story. God bless you all ! Remember your not alone, you have friends here !

Just want to say Hi, yes I still want to cut, I just wish I could stop! I just want to be held, and told it will be ok, but I want to cut because there is none to hold!