all my workers are leaving within the next 8 months

my doctor at the hospital is leaving
my case manager is retiring
and my other case worker is going to a new job

i feel a bit lost i hate changers

i have now been here 7 weeks

i just been told that i will be here another 6-8 weeks at least

they now want me to go to footbridge from the hospital - they dont want me to go into shared accommodation - which i find odd because footbridge is shared - cant do anything about it

they wanted to move me into a shear room and i went psycho big time i punched a big hole in a wall and bit a nurse - so they put me in seclusion and made me involuntary then they put me in HDU for a few days and your not allowed lots of stuff in there - very boring - i back in the open ward but they move me to a different ward upstairs of the one i was in before - im still involuntary until at least monday when i see the doctors again - im only allowed 2 hours of unescorted leave a day - when i left HDU the nurses were suppressed i was allowed leave at all just coming out of HDU

i think the nurse i bit is mad that they didn't discharge me on the spot and they kept me her - i even thought they would discharge me - im now in a single room and have been told they will not put me in a shared room - and they now give me PRN meds when i ask for it instead of what they use to do and make me wate an hour

HDU (high dependency unit)

OMG!!!!! i have been in hospital for 5 weeks 1 day

one of the accommodations has fallen through - not my fault - they are stuped people playing phone tag with my workers and because of that i never got a interview for the unit - very frustrating

i have been accepted to the CCU place i just have to wate for a bed which could take months - i dont want to stay that long in hospital but i may have to

they have another place which i think is a 95% chance i will get - 2 things i dont like about it is the area its in (CBD) of Melbourne and it is with 3 other people - so i go from 2 others to 3 others

there is a patient that is driving me NUTS - i so want to glue and tape his mouth shut - he is old and grumpy (no offence ment) - will not shut up - its his way or no way - i just want to punch him

i had side effects of Largactil - tremor, restlessness, muscle stiffness - but according to the doctor was not caused by the Largactil but i think it was now it is out of my system i dont have the side effects anymore - now they give me Olanzapine when i need it

im sooo sick of being in hospital - now its been just over a month i have been here - hurry up housing - i have had it with the nurses and other people here - i just want to get my own place

i had overnight leave at my friends again the other day - went well