I just feel overextended. So many things has happened and I've grown... been out of my comfort zone a lot. I'm just tired.

I'm tired of my own psychojargon and self-diagnosing. Gonna flush those down the toilet. Where they belong.

I'm scared of going back to school. I don't want to. I honestly don't want to study. I don't think I'm ready honestly, ever. No meds will help me motivate. I can't handle the load, the pressure. I don't know what the hell I'm going to do.

I'm once again paranoid about what Nietzsche once wrote: "When you gaze long into the abyss. The abyss gazes also into you." I'm looking his sayings from a Jungian perspective. I know I need to accept the darker aspects of my personality. But damn, it's hard.