I'm new to this, so I'm kinda nervous, but hopeful too.

My name is Hannah. I'm 16 years old, and I live in a small Midwestern town. My life is almost perfect. I get good grades, I'm involved in band, chorus, and drama club, I have awesome friends, a family that cares about me, and an amazing boyfriend of 3 years who loves me dearly.

And yet, I'm troubled. I have these weird... fetishes, and I don't know where they came from. The ones causing me grief are centered around blood, pain, and killing. I also seem to have a weird fetish for hypnosis, but that one doesn't really bother me. They all go both ways (drinking blood/having someone drink my blood, causing pain/being in pain, etc.) except for killing. The killing gives me the most grief. It's depressing to think about, and yet it fascinates me. Sometimes I feel like I've gone crazy. My boyfriend knows about all of these fetishes. In fact, he's the one who recommended this site to me. I love him with all of my heart, and I don't want to hurt him. I'm completely terrified that one day I might just snap.

If anyone has any advice, I'm willing to listen. Please try to be understanding, though the people here, from what I've seen, are very friendly and helpful.